Some days I feel like I’m running ahead of the game: up early, laundry in, coffee made, run with Dudley, shower, matching clothes on body, reading to kids, making cookies, catching up on my own reading, actually stringing together an entire sentence to speak. Other days, I’m running in place: kids fed and dressed and nobody cries (too much).
Then there are the days when I feel like I’m running backwards. The days of, “I never did get to that, did I?” Days when you have to run the wash machine three times on the same load because you keep forgetting there are clothes in there and by the time you open the door, they smell icky. Days when you remember at breakfast that you forgot to buy milk, forgot to buy diapers and forgot to feed the dog… or buy dog food. Days when someone asks you gently, “Hey – have you read that book I gave you yet? I wanted to loan it to someone else…” Days when there’s that volunteer project coming up that everyone is jumping on, and you know that you have to commit to do something, most specifically because people are counting on you, but all you want to do is pretend you never saw the email. Days when you go to bed and start wondering, did I ever even hug my husband today? Or pet the dog? Or brush my teeth??
I know that these days of being home all day with tiny kids is fleeting, but sometimes I wonder if I’m ever going to get my act back together…
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6 responses to “Running Backwards”
I know the feeling. I have kids similar ages to yours and I have those days a lot!! I hear my mommy brain fog will go away eventually. Haha.
trust your mommy – the days of babies goes by so fast and then you find yourself crying because they are all grown up!!! And there will be plenty of time to volunteer as they get older with all their school activities. We are really enjoying our trip, but I look forward to getting back and playing with all my grandchildren and helping my daughters have some time to themselves!!! Hang in there and just hug them extra when you feel overwhelmed. love you, mommy
Oh your act is WAAAYYYY more together than mine… 😳 trust me… and my kids are 5 and almost 7. Love ya
grammy, don’t cry… we are still here and we love you so much! 😛
The words from your mom brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for your openness and honesty in the season of mommyhood for it is a word in due season for others, such as myself. You are not alone in your thoughts and ‘days’ – hang in there and remember, “This Too Shall Pass” – the good and the bad, so take a deep breath and remember we are all a work in progress and becoming new daily.
Have you ever tried diapers.com? It is wonderful. Order and have them the next day. They have a great selection and prices are reasonable especially since you don’t pay tax or shipping if you spend a certain amount (which I never seem to have a problem doing).